Monday, November 23, 2009

Life is Speeding Up

Why, hello there! It's been almost a month since I've posted and so much has happened during that time. If you haven't heard, my wife and I are expecting! God is so good in choosing us to be parents! God's timing is perfect because the baby is due May 27th, so I will be done with school and ready to teach that fall. Another development that is happening (partly because the baby is coming) is that we are in the process of selling our house and buying another house at the same time. God has been evident to me during this process already, so I will stay faithful and acknowledge that He is in control this situation. We put our house on the market on Thursday and someone has already come to look at it yesterday (Sunday) and we have another showing today! God is so good! We also have a bid on a very nice house in the works at the moment.

It is hard for me to focus on my daily reading and studying the Word right now with so much going on. My school semester is almost over, so I find myself procrastinating big projects and putting off my quiet time in the process. The good news is that I only have a couple of big assignments remaining, so hopefully I can be back on the right track beginning this week.

I do have one question for those of you out there who would like to participate. Lately, I have been wondering about the way the Bible was written and which parts were meant for which people. It seems like the deeper you study the Bible, the more questions you have. My question is: Aside from the Holy Spirit, how are we supposed to know when the Bible is talking to us? I mean if you research deep enough, each time the Bible gives a promise or tells us what to do or not to do, that promise or command was intended for a person or group in the Bible. When Paul writes to the Corinthians, is it okay for us to assume that his message was meant for the modern day church as well? When Isaiah or any other prophet speaks to people about their sins and God destroying them, are we supposed to take that as God talking to America? I feel like it is easy to take things out of context, and was wondering when or when not we are supposed to know which passage was meant for who.

Take your favorite verse, well lets take mine since you can't really talk right now...Philipians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." It is so easy for us Christians to take this verse and put it on t-shirts (sorry Beth Havenites) and whatever else, but is this what God intended us to do? Are we supposed to take Paul's words and use them for ourselves? Am I supposed to gain encouragement from this verse whenever I feel like I can't do something? Or, should we study the context of this verse and realize that Paul said this to the Philipians and he was talking about being content. I feel like if you study this deep enough, it becomes mere facts and not meant for you and me.

I know that the Bible is God's love letter to Christians and we are supposed to read it as such, but I am confused about when to apply these passages to my life. Take any of the Psalms. These are mostly David's songs to and about God. There are several promises that David proclaims in his songs. Are we supossed to hold onto these promises for our lives? Or are we supposed to realize this is just a song of praise to God? Psalm 10 proclaims that God is the helper of the fatherless, is it ok for me to use that verse to encourage friends who don't have parents?

In thinking about this, I have concluded that the more I read and the closer my walk is with the LORD, the clearer things will be. I believe that the Holy Spirit will put verses in my heart to use at the appropriate times throughout my life. I understand that all Scripture is God-breathed, but does anyone have anything to add about this topic? Your input is more than welcome!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Angels

What do you think about angels? Any Christian will tell you that they exist. Some may have a story that they've heard or read about involving somebody seeing an angel. Do you believe that angels are still at work today? More importantly, do you believe that angels are still at work today for you? Personally, I hardly think about angels and am not as educated on the subject as I'd like to be. I believe that there is spiritual warfare going on all around me, but I rarely think about it affecting my life.

In Acts 12, Peter is in jail and the church is earnestly praying for him (verse 5). When is the last time you or I earnestly prayed for anything? What does earnestly even mean? Well good thing you asked, because I looked it up! Earnestly means serious in intention, purpose or effort. Another definition is showing depth and sincerity of feeling. If I am honest with myself, I can't recall the last time I was that serious about a prayer. Anyways, back to the story. An angel came to Peter and broke him out of jail. The angel vanished and Peter went to a house where people had gathered to pray for him. He knocked on the door and a servant girl recognized his voice and ran to the others to tell them Peter was at the door. Now look at their response in verse 15, "You're out of your mind," they told her. When she kept insisting that it was so, they said, "It must be his angel."

This strikes me as a very odd reaction to what is going on. The people had enough faith to believe that Peter's angel was at the door, but could not fathom Peter being at the door. Because the people were earnestly praying, they fully believed that God would send an angel for Peter. Notice that nobody jumped up and ran to the door to see what an angel looks like. The next verse actually says that Peter kept knocking. Everybody kept going about their business when they assumed that there was an angel outside of their door. The mood I get from this story is that they are treating an angel of the Lord like the next door neighbor needing a cup of sugar. The only justification for this response that I can think of is that angels were very common for the early believers. Everybody at that house probably had seen angels at work in their lives.

What about us? Why aren't their more stories about angels doing miraculous things in our lives? Do we not pray earnest enough? Do we not have enough faith? I don't know the answers to these questions, but I would love to be able to have an experience of my own about angels. If you have a personal story about angels or can point me to some good passages in the Bible on how and when angels work, please share them with me! This kind of stuff intrigues me and I would like to be more educated on the topic.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Fun with Math

I read this concept in a book that I had to read for school, and have been meaning to share it with you all for about a week. Pascal was a mathematician from the 1600s that discovered that it was a wise and correct decision to become a Christian. He believed his theory so much that he disgarded his math and science background and became a theologian for the rest of his days. Pascal used what is called probability theory to justify his choice to become a Christian and theologian.

For those of you who don't know/don't care about probability theory, let me try to explain it to you. Suppose you have a choice between two envelopes (A and B). In envelope A, there is 10 dollars and in envelope B there is 100 dollars. Your job is to choose an envelope and then a coin will be flipped. The two sides of the coin represents the two evelopes, heads for A and tails for B. If you chose the envelope that the coin represents, you get to keep the money. Understand so far? Now there are four outcomes to this little game. 1. The coin lands on heads and you chose envelope A. 2. The coin lands on heads and you chose envelope B. 3. The coin lands on tails and you chose envelope A. 4. The coin lands on tails and you chose envelope B.

Probability theory calculates the expected money that you could get. That is, since there is 10 dollars in envelope A and the chances of the coin landing on heads is 50%, the expected amount of money for this choice is 5 dollars. Likewise, since there is 100 dollars in envelope B and the same chances, the expected amount of money for this choice is 50 dollars. Since the expected value of envelope B is much greater than envelope A, the correct choice in this game is envelope B. Now most of you probably used your intuition to choose envelope B and didn't even think about the expected values, but that is the mathematical explanation of your intuition.

So lets take our little game and use it with Christianity. So we have two separate conditions: either you are a believer or a non-believer, and either Jesus saves us from hell and believers go to heaven, or heaven and hell don't exist. Once again, there are four outcomes. 1. You are a believer and you go to heaven. 2. You are a believer and heaven doesn't exist, so nothing happens. 3. You are not a believer and you go to hell. 4. You are not a believer and hell doesn't exist, so nothing happens. Pascal assigned a numerical value of infinity to heaven because heaven is eternal bliss with Jesus and he assigned a numerical value of negative infinity to hell because it is eternal damnation. So in his probability theory he assumed the chances of there being a God and Jesus coming down to save us was 50-50. It looked something like this:

Believers:

God exists (50%) and you go to heaven: 50% of infinity=infinity.
God doesn't exist (50%) and nothing happens: 50% of 0=0.

So the expected value of being a believer is infinity + 0, which is infinity.

Non-Believers:

God exists (50%) and you go to hell: 50% of negative infinity=negative infinity.
God doesn't exist (50%) and nothing happens: 50% of 0= 0.

So the expected value of being a non-believer is negative infinity + 0, which is negative infinity.

We don't know the exact probability that God exists, but by using the properties of infinity and zero, you can see that those percentages do not matter. Say there is a 20% chance that God exists, 20% of infinity is still infinity! Say there is a 0.00001% chance that God exists....still infinity. The only way this does not make since is if there is a 0% chance that God does not exist. In math, you cannot do 0 x infinity, its gibberish. Since nobody on this earth can prove that there is a 0% chance that God exists, I'm siding with my old friend Pascal on this one and living my life for Jesus.

I hope this made a little bit of sense to you because I found it to be very profound and interesting.

Monday, October 5, 2009

A little bit more...

A new friend in my community group shared this concept with us and I feel that it is worth repeating.

In God's infinite wisdom, he has created us just the way we are supposed to be. We, being filthy and sinful, take what God has meant for good and make it bad. One of these things is the desire to have just a little bit more than what we already have.

This desire was most evident in my sexuality. As a teenage boy, I remember sinfully lusting after the female body. Most guys can remember a time in their life when they have struggled with the same thing. My lust was not quenched unless I saw a little bit more than what I had previously seen. No matter how deep down the rabbit hole I ventured, I always seemed to want just a little bit more.

Another way we perverse this idea is with materialism. We have all wanted bigger and better than what we possess. We want a little bit more money, time, clothes, etc. It is so hard for us to be content with what God has given us.

While this concept of wanting a little bit more may be seen as sinful, I'd like to argue that it is the way God made us! We, as sinners, have turned this into a sinful thing. I challenge you to use this longing of wanting more to glorify God.

I believe that God has given us this longing to use it on His Word. The Bible contains more information than any human can consume in their lifetime. There has never been a Biblical scholar that finishes studying the Bible. Everytime we open the Bible we should be getting a little bit more out of it than when we last read it. This is what I believe God intended.

My prayer is that we want a little bit more time with God each day and we use a little bit more time to advance His kingdom.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Perfection

It's been over a month since my last post, and I apologize for that. I have not written for a number of reasons, none of which are good reasons. A lot of times, I feel like I have nothing of worth to write about. I let my pride get in the way of the true purpose of this blog, which is to be transparent and show everyone how I grow and struggle in my walk with God. The struggling part can be represented by the lack of posts!

Sometimes, I feel like I have to have a "revelation from God" or something that I think would be good for everyone to hear/read. I have realized that this is my insecurity of how I am perceived. This begs the question: "Who am I trying to impress?". God? My elders? My peers? This leads to another question: "Why am I trying to impress anyone?". I am not perfect, but the problem is that I like to be perceived by others as being close to perfect. I like to let others think that I have it all together. I need to get rid of this prideful way of thinking and be real with myself.

With that being said, as of this moment, I am struggling with being content with my present life. Don't get me wrong, I have a great life! I have a wonderful wife, a great family, a great church, and tons of blessings. The problem is that I am too busy looking forward to the future. I have staked my happiness and joy in the things to come. When I become a teacher.... When we get a better house.... When we get a better car.... When we start having kids.... Its fun and even somewhat productive to think about these things, but I believe that I am missing out on what God has in store for me right now. I am praying for contentment with my life right now. I have so many things to be joyful about, I just don't need to let the future (the temptation of bigger and better things to come) get in the way.

The last thing that I'd like to bring up is the realness of God. I have been struggling with how real God is to me. I believe in God, Jesus, the Bible, etc., and I truly believe that I am a Christian, that is not the point that I am trying to make. I just think that if Jesus were to walk into my house and show himself to me, I would live my life drastically different. Maybe this is an issue of how little faith I have. Maybe its the devil's temptation that we are going to live forever and we can worry about this "God thing" later on. I think that if we all acted like Jesus was as real as any person we know, our lives would be transformed. I do not want to just have a concept of Jesus, I want to know without a shadow of doubt that He is real, and act like it.

Forgive me, friends, for not posting lately. I will try to do better. I am not worthy of anyone reading this, but my prayer is that something I write will encourage you. Please pray for my prideful heart and that I can be content with my life and everything that God has blessed me with. Let's all live today in the truth that He is alive and real!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Consistency

As you can probably tell by now, one of my biggest struggles in life is being consistent.  I do not consistently give my time, effort, or trust to the Lord.  Today, I am starting something that is long overdue.  I am going to wake up an hour before I usually do to devote to the Lord.  I have tried in the past and always seem to come up short, but this time I want you (my readers/friends) to hold me accountable.  

Time is a very precious thing that most of us do not care enough about.  I waste time on facebook, watching tv, and playing xbox.  While all of these things are not bad things, the amount of time that I invest in these things are probably bad.  I could be using this time more efficiently by reading and studying the Word of God, investing in friendships, making new friendships, helping those in need, etc.  I encourage all of you to begin praying about how you could better use your time.  I propose that we start focusing on our eternal lives rather than trying to selfishly satisfy our earthly lives.  

My wife would be the first one to tell you that I also struggle with the idea of giving effort.  Sure, give me a basketball or a deck of cards, and I will put everything I have into what I'm doing, but when it comes to actions that I do not particularly want to do, words like "lazy" and "poor effort" come to mind.  I think that I am most guilty of this in my everyday conversations.  I do not put hardly any effort into talking with my friends and family.  During conversations, I typically do not ask questions or remember details.  This tells me that I am not putting any effort into the conversations.  I need to change!

This last point is a mystery to me.  I find it discouraging why it seems so hard to trust the Lord.  The Bible is full of promises that are given to Christians, but how many of us trust these promises?  God says to test him in tithing and see if He will not bless you, but how many of us struggle with tithing?  The Bible says to daily meditate on the Word and everything we do will prosper, but how many of us follow through with this?  Do we not want blessings and prosperity? I don't think thats the case.  I think we don't fully trust these words.  

My prayer is that we all begin to be consistent in these three categories of our lives; time, effort and trust.  As Christians, we need to encourage each other to do better!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Listen

After a fantastic week of Kiddo Camp, I returned home safely Friday evening. I was in charge of directing the kids up and down a creek for an hour at a time, helping them catch "critters". I am thankful that a) Nobody got lost on our adventure. b)Nobody got hurt on our adventure. We encountered two snakes which were probably poisonous and a mean hornets' nest. I have to admit that I did not notice the hornets' nest until the third time I made the trek down the creek. Its only by God's grace that the first two teams didn't get stung. c)Everyone seemed to have a good time on the adventure.

I love Kiddo Camp and everything that it represents. Adults sacrifice their time and often times vacation days to give to these kiddos. Parents put their trust in these adults to take care of these kids. The activities are planned for the kids' enjoyments. And God is praised and honored the whole week, by the staff and children. Who wouln't want to be a part of this experience?

I do have a little anecdote from camp that I believe can lead into what God was trying to tell me this week. It was Tuesday afternoon and the thunderstorms were coming through. We all were instructed to stay in our cabin until further notice. This means that myself and Mr. Caleb were accompanied by seven amped up fourth graders in our small cabin. Caleb and I were of the opinion that now was the best time for a little mid-day nap, so we turned the lights off and told the guys to just listen to the storm. This plan seemed like a great idea. Most of the boys were on board, but we had one little guy who had a different idea of what to do with his time inside the cabin. As Caleb and I were attempting to take a quick nap, this kiddo talked. I don't really know if anyone was listening to him, but he talked and talked and talked the whole time we were inside. After a half an hour of this (seriously), I think me and Caleb had about enough of the talking. We gave up the nap (it was not going to happen) and began doing something else to pass our time.

The Holy Spirit put this story in my mind today during church. Also, I was reminded of a story about Elijah from my reading this week. In 1 Kings 19:11-12, Elijah was hiding in a cave and the Lord told him that He was about to pass by. Elijah came out and a great wind, an earthquake and fire all passed, but the Lord was not in any of these. Finally, a gentle whisper came, and it was the Lord. As I think back to our little kiddo who would not stop talking, I wonder how many of us are in that same boat? What if God is trying to give us a gentle whisper and we are too busy talking? We could even be talking about something spiritual or something not "bad", but this talkng is getting in the way of our listening. I think we should all be still from time to time and see if God is trying to whisper to us. The examples in the Bible of the wind, earthquake and fire are the type of things that we look for God to be in. Yes, God speaks in tragedies, God speaks in very hurtful times in your lives, but are we missing the times when He is trying to teach us something and we aren't listening?

My prayer is that we begin listening to God. We begin listening to the Word of God. We begin giving God some time to speak to us during our prayer time. We begin to heed the advice of the strong Christians God has placed in our lives. Stop talking and listen!